I once went to a doctor, it was a Thursday, I remember it so well.. sob sob... Anyway, I went there because I was sick, duh, and she asked me if I had taken my breakfast. (It was about 11) So I told her I haven't and that I don't usually eat breakfast and then she looked so surprised. Well, Dear doctor wtv-ur-name-is, I can tell you that today, I have eaten my breakfast. I ate it at five. Hehe, I just had breakfast after fetching my sis from dance class. I had ham, egg, sausage, bread and two fries. The rest of my fries were stolen by the two other people sitting at my table. So, just because I woke up at 12 doesn't mean I can't have breakfast right? Crap, I'm hungry again. Oh, guess what I to drink with my brekkie? I had Milo Ksg Ais don't want ice. Haha... that poor guy must be wondering how to make cold Milo without using ice and without enough time to put it in the fridge.
Me blogged @ | 6:11 pm
COLD!! There's one place in Malaysia where you can have winter-like tempratures. Or rather summer in the north pole? At least I can change the temprature of my winter. Hehe. Anyway, somebody has to report me to the SPCAnts because there are ants all over the table, again. My fingers are cold and can barely type, I'm not going to waste my energy on ants. I want to cry! I can't open my disc! I decided to move on with my life and pick myself up after I had fallen so I started to write the story again. The same story but written in different words. I used to have 56 pages in the disc, now I only have two. Two! I spent two hours writing two pages of things that I think about day and night. The story takes palce over a long period of time, a few years, and now that I've started writing from the beginning, I don't know what to write. I've gotten used to writing things that happens with my character, Samantha's, stepdad. I can't write! I almost wrote the first chapter only two pages long! Well, one and a half because I have a prologue. From 20 thousand words of I'm not mistaken, now I only have ONE thousand. It's so frustrating, I sat on my bed with the laptop lastnight trying to write but I kept on thinking about things that I want to write after I finish that part.
On a brighter note, I have a new fish. It's a clownfish but it doesn't look a thing like Nemo. It's fatter and bigger, not that I've seen Nemo in real life before. When I go up to the glass, it comes to look at me but I think that's because she wants food. I don't care if it's actually a he or she, all pets in my house are shes. Hehe. I'm not going to name it until I'm sure it will survive for another year or so. Unfortunately, she's all alone in the aquarium. I still miss my cowfish. I miss it dearly, it was so beautiful. It wasn't cheap either. I feel terrible, because on one hand, I think it is unfair to these little creatures to be taken out of their natural habitat and stuffed into a tiny little aquarium with no one else but on the other hand, they are so cute and nice to look at. Nice to play with too, dogs would be more fun but who says you can't pat fishes? My dad pats the puffer fish at home. But I don't do that because it'll bite me, I never feed it. My sister has a friend who has an arowana and when it's master comes home, it will go to the glass of the aquarium to 'greet' him. And once, it bit my sis' fren while he was trying to give it frogs to eat and after that, it went and hid behind a rock, looking out and looking guilty. It didn't even dare to eat the frogs! See, animals have feelings too and their feelings are almost human-like. I wouldn't like to be stuffed into an aquarium and that's why I feel that we shouldn't keep fishes as pets. Bah, I'm such a hypocrite aren't I?
Me blogged @ | 3:49 pm
I don't know how to change the resolution of my computer so now, everything is BIG!!! My eyes also pain edy... Haih. BIG! Anyway, my dad called some computer guy to come and fix my computer so now I can access hotmail and msn messenger already! I'm quite happy. Although I don't miss it dearly so, it's quite nice to be able to chat with my old friends who don't have yahoo or icq. Well, I won't be dowloading ICQ because the aren't many people who use it that don't have MSN and also because I'm to lazy to.
Dr Liew has another
blog that his 'stalkers' all contribute to the posts. I prefer his blog but I guess the other one is stil new so I shouldn't judge it just yet, not that I'm in any position to judge anything though. I finally commented that purr purr karer is for sexually frustrated people. Hehe. WC should go work for Doc, she would fit very well, the whole sexually frustrated thing. Lol. Anyway, if both doc and his rpcns are s.f. then maybe it is a good thing for the rpcns that the 'not so yong sui man' came into the picture. Hehe. I know I'm being mean. Lol. Yun commented the other day something to the effect that I am never not mean. Do I agree with her? NO! Can't you see the halo above my head? Lol.
Recently, I've been in quite bad moods and even worse mood swings. W became a victim of it. I seldom make friends a victim but yet I find it ok to let it out on him. I didn't really scold him or anything like that. I just commented about the comp guy using some words that I shouldn't be using and well, ok, I did kind of 'scold' him. I told him that he should stop thinking that he's better than everybody else becaue he's not. But what he said before that was only on a joking note. It was after F1 that time so it was about 3 something in the morning. I don't know if it was because I was tired or what but I think I shouldn't have said it. I normally would have just shot back something sarcastic. Well, thankfully, he didn't get angry at me, instead he grew concern and phoned me at three something. (Phoning is one of the words that is scarce in his vocab) And he was quite nice, he asked me what was wrong and why I was getting angry over little things. I guess he's right, I was getting angry over a little joke. It wasn't even insulting to anyone. I really don't know what's wrong with me. I'm going to write him an email later, apologise to him for my behaviour. I know there's no need but I just want him to know that everthing is ok with me. Nothing is wrong. I guess. I'm really having doubts as to whether or not there is something wrong with me, I want to blame it on oestrogen eventhough I believe it's not. Sigh, I just wish I knew. Well, there's only one thing I can do. It may sound stupid to you non-believers but I will pray. Ask for God's guidance and strength and also some knowledge so that I can spell strength properly. If I have faith, I know I will see. I've seen before and witnessed the true love and the trueness of Him, I know if it is His will, I just have to open my eyes to realise. Realise His love for me, and for the world.
Me blogged @ | 6:37 pm
I'm cold... I'm so very horribly cold! I'm so cold till I can barely type. Anyway, I want to do a book review today because I am so in love with Robin Cook. He is just who I want to be, mad doctor... Ok, he's not mad, just his characters are kind of. Well, very since they tend to murder people and think nothing of it. Their MDs mind you. If you want mad doctor, go see Dr Liew. =P Here goes, it was published around 1987 actually but I wasn't even young then.
Outbreak by Robin Cook
So romantic! Hahahahah... anyway, it's about this girl, Dr. Marissa Blumenthal who is an EIS oficer for CDC and she is sent out for her first field work to somewhere for an Ebola Outbreak. So at first, it doesn't seem like much, lost many lives though. Then there are more outbreaks here and there. Then she starts to suspect somthing's amiss because the virus is exactly the same strain as the outbreak from Zaire '76. In an outbreak in Philadelphia, she suspects that in came from the custard and tries to prove it. She is then transferred from Virology to Bacteriology, meaning she doesn't get to work with Ebola anymore. Despite this, she continues to try to reveal what is actually happening. SOme super-hi-tech-thingie then leads her to a lab somehwere far far away in an ulu place. She checks out the lab and finds that all of its partners are members of the Physicians' something something(PAC).(The lab has the technology to handle Ebola) Then she goes investigating and people try to kill her by injecting her with Ebola but she, at 5 feet, fights of her would-be murderer and injects him with the Ebola virus instead. Another attempt to kill her was again in her hotel room, again she hid in the toilet, she took a paring knife and stabbed the bad guy half to death and then that guy was charged for murder of one of the maids which he killed to get into Dr. Blumenthal's room. His two accomplices try to take revenge. She runs to her 'boyfriend's' (who is older than her by 22 yrs) place, then while she was there, she find's out he's bad so she drugs him with 10mg of Valium that was meant for her. She runs away in his Mercedes S-dunnowhat. She goes to the CDC lab to take her only evidence and then the security guard calls her superior. She runs from him and straight into 'her' car and finds the two bad flers there. She hears a loud bang and she falls unconscious (or wtv) She wakes up and then it turns out that the FBI shot one of the bad flers. I still dunno why she fell unconscious. The Ebola virus was stolen from the maximum containment lab in the CDC. PAC stole it because they wanted to spread it to the clinics that were having prepaid medical plans instead of fee-for-service type because PAC said that prepaid was moving further away from medical ethics, so that the clinics wil close down. Yeah, like spreading the deadly Ebola virus killing hundreds and hundreds of people were very ethical.
Sheesh, anyway, I just gave a synopsis not a review... Anyway, it ended with Marissa asking the superior to ask her out for dinner becaue previously, he suggested something like that to her but she declined in a not very political manner and he started treating her badly. I don't know what the heck is wrong with Dr. Blumenthal. Her superior is a widower so you can imagine howo ld he is whereas she is only about thirty. Well, I'm not the author. Robin Cook is seriously a good writer. Perhaps 'outbreak' isn't as good as Dan Brown's the Da Vinci Code but it certainly didn't offend as many people as Brown did. I also read 'Shopaholic and Sister' by Sophie Kinsella and it was good. I couldn't put it down so I ended up reading until 5a.m. that Wednesday. I love LUKE! Hahaha.. he's so sweet... I don't exactly hate Becky though. Seeing Becky and her sis, Jess, I can actually see some resemblance in character between my own sis and I. I'm a skinflint and she is a Shopaholic. Lol. Well, I'm going to go seek asylum in the toilet now because I'm about to turn into a human icicle.... Brrrrrrr......
Me blogged @ | 5:03 pm
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is stupid!! It's ridiculous!! I can't even go into yahoo anymore! It's not the incredifind thing that comes up, it's something else now, also a search thing. To make matters worse, there are at least one pop up everytime i get redirected to that page! Sometimes it's two! I can't read my mail! I did a spyware search and destroy yesterday and today, it's like this! It was already showing some problems yesterday after the spyware thing and today it's worse! Can somebody please tell me what's wrong??!! I already have a headache from this. Sigh... drop the computer and pick up the book. I am going to read, something that seldom fails to make me sleep although I'm not supposed to be sleeping. I will be calm... uhhhhmmmm........... uhhhhhmmmmmmm......
*It's simply a matter of letting my higher self take over, acheiving enlightenment and becoming a radiant being of white light*
Me blogged @ | 2:24 pm
I will be calm... Incredifind is so bloody irritating! It comes up everytime I try to go into certain sites. I'm glad that not al sites are affected. For now however, I can't go into my Yahoo mail and I can't read my mail. I know it's only one mail but still! It's my mail!!
Forget it, this isn't worth my blood pressure although I have to admit that if my blood pressure was a little higher, I would probably be healthier. Anyway. I may be in a bad mood but there are stil some things that can humour me. Just now, my father's friend said she had to eat more sugar today because she didn't eat proper meals. So she finished about half a tube of Mentos. Haha! How can you substitute your meals with mentos? Does she think that when she eats her lunch al that is inside is sugar? Nothing else? Sheesh, this is something like Dr Liew with his heaty-chillness problem that he gets from his 'beloved' patients. Sigh, and to make it all worse, my father Yes my own father! said he had a sorethroat because he must be heaty. So there you go, my father and his friends. I may not be a doctor (W laughs at the possibility of me ever becoming one) but I still get frustrated when I hear things like this. I admit, there is a small possibilty that the whole heaty-chillness thing does exist but as long as no one can prove it, I'm not believing it. Go and eat bees.
Forget it, I've said it before and I'll say it again, this isn't worth getting hypertension over. Yesterday, I confessed to dSaint that I couldn't stand children. It's true but today, there is a small toddler about the age of 2 in front of me. It's not all that annoying when you watch from afar. I think it's kind of cute. But all in all, I suck with children. Sigh, will I ever become a mother. Mind you, this is coming from a person who once upon a time wanted to be a paediatrician. I'm laughing at the thought of ever becoming a paediatrician. Neonatologist, maybe because neonates don't talk, don't shout, don't walk etc. Actually, I'm not sure if they even cry. Heh, I should be a... Don't know what you call it. The kind that cuts up dead people? Hehe, the dead do not talk, walk, cry, scream, shout, laugh or do anything else for that matter, they just lie there and decompose. Heh. Anyway, I'll go and wallow in my bad mood today. By the way, I think my dad's friend finished the ENTIRE tube of mentos. Me? I don't like Mentos, had too much of it when I was a developing foetus.
Me blogged @ | 7:27 pm
Today is a Tuesday. I just came back from tennis. My coach didn't come. So we just played by ourselves. I can't seem to go into Yahoo!. SO sad. I have mail there but I can't read it. Sigh. I am so BORED! AAAHHHH!!! Ok, I just felt like screaming. I don't know what to do. I don't seem to be in the mood to do anything today. I didn't even feel like playing tennis just now but I just went for the sake of it. I don't want to sleep, I don't want to eat I don't want to read, I actually don't even want to blog but I have othing else to do. I certainly don't want to crack my brain and try to find contents for my site. Sigh. I can't get a proper layout or even colour. And I don't have any pictures. Sigh. Bye. Hugz~
Me blogged @ | 5:45 pm
Hamster!! Ok, nevermind, wrong blog. I didn't have time to blog yesterday eventhough I was online the whole afternoon because I was busy doing my website. It sucks because it has no pictures and practically no content but I'm trying my best.
I wil never ever in my entire life for all of eternity be a cook. I wil poison people. I'm scared of hear, that was a discovery I made when I made fish and chips. (the stuffinto the over for dunno how many minutes kind)and today I cooked myself lunch. If I get left alone without lunch for a few more weeks, I'm going to die of malnutrition. I ate egg with sausages and corned beef inside and chicken balls and milk.
- egg= protein
- sausages= protein
- corned beef= protein
- chicken= protein
- milk= protein
Hehe... I think I should have salad for dinner tonight.
Anyway, I received the shortest email I've ever received today. It was from my coordinator. It said "Thanks, God bless, A" But I didn't expect the mail let alone expect it to be long because I sent him back an empty email. Hehe. He said he wanted confirmation that I received his email and I didn't know what to write so I just sent him a blank one. I didn't want to use the coconut water inside my head. Don't want it to evaporate just in case people call me light headed. I'm crapping. I've crapped more than this but I'm crapping. Sheesh, I should just shut up. Anyway, nothing. Bye. Auf wiedersehn.
Me blogged @ | 4:21 pm
The posts number is never going to reach 100 is it? Neither will my bowling score. I scored 70 something yesterday... is you add up both my games. Sigh... I got one strike and one spare. That was it. My complete 0s were more. Too many to count. Though I made a complete fool of myself, I had lots of fun. Falling, dropping the all with a thunderous thump, screaming when my ball went into the gutter, jumping and swinging my hands like a lunatic... it was all good fun. Just like ice skating, I am looking forward to the next time I bowl.
I feel like an old auntie. Every muscle and every bone in my body is aching because it was so cold last night and I slept without a blanket. I stole my sister's blanket but she stole it back. Erm... took it back. Hehe. Instead of waking up early as I thought I would have because I slept at ten something last night, I woke up and ten something this morning. Sigh. I just had breakfast, which of course was lovely. Almost anytime you put food in front of me and it would be lovely. Haha... It's my life. Food is the center of my universe so it is the core of the core of the universe... hehehehe. I had bread, butter, kaya and of course, a meal isn't complete without my Milo kosong ping.
Right now, there is an irritating but cute little boy making irritating noises. I can excuse the little boy because he is very young and I think he can't rally talk but his elder brother is mimicking his sounds and that is something I can't stand. I know, I know, I suck with children. They are cute and I like to smile at them but my love for children ceases to continue from there. IRRITATING! Hehe... And to think that I actually used to want to be a paediatrician, I'd probably kill those annoying little brats. If there's one thing I dislike more than noisy children is parents that fail to control them. The parents are sitting in front of me. Since I'm in such a good mood today on a full stomach, I shall spare their lives... hehe, I'm so nice, yes I know...
okays, I'll stop complaining about the people around me right now. Not worth freezing my aching ass to type all that. I'm going to continue doing my website. I seem to have lost the inspiration but I still want to do it. I have to, I have nothing else to do with my time. I bought a new book which I intend to finish sometime soon and then I'll borrow Ed's book and read that one too. Good for general knowledge. HM said she can be my tutor for HTML because I have rather limited knowledge. I went to Kinokuniya on Wednesday and found this book which I found quite useful but it was about RM 80+ so my mum refuse to buy it for me. I intend to get a job but I still don't know what to work as. There's a vacancy near my house here that is 'urgent' It's in a clinic and I'm not sure if I'm willing to sit in a super cold clinic digging dusty files all day. I'm going to ask my mum to ask for me because she know's the doc there. I feel kind of stupid because if I want to work I should apply for the job myself and nt wait form ummy dearest to do so for me. Oh well, I'm a spoilt rotten brat, what's new? I'll stop blabbering now because I realise that with my new blog skin, it's quite difficult to read. Or maybe it's just me needing an eye check. Whatever. Byebye, auf wiedersehn, au revoir, till we meet again...
Me blogged @ | 11:41 am
I just came back from Sunway Pyramid. It was so fun. I went ice skating for the first time and I fell down three times! THREE! There were little children there and they could skate better than me. Well, despite all the falls, I had lots of fun. I still can't skate very well. I think it's because I don't have enough confidence in myself to leave the sides and skate. I really hope I get to skate again sometime soon. I only skated in the middle once and that was when Karina cut/grazed/whatever her hand and Yun got scared and asked me to go see her. I don't know why Yun was scared. To me, it was so tiny. I admit that I seldom see anything bigger but it wasn't big. The biggest cut I've seen before is W's parang accident. Hehe "swing swing swing and cut yourself" Crap, I lost the pic. Guess you guys can't see the pic of an idiot's parang accident. Even then, it wasn't that bad, only four stitches. HAhahahaah!! I know, I'm so mean.
I still love my blog! Hehe...
Me blogged @ | 8:06 pm
My hundredth post!! YUNYUN YOU ARE MY STAR!! I love you. Ich leibe dich!! I don't know if I spelt it right. I love my blog. Everybody, say thank you yunyun!!! It's so cute. I never expected her to get me a blog with cute wittle teddy bear. I love it. I love every single bit of it. I'm glad we share the same taste or maybe she just knows me so well that she knows I'll love this.
Anyway, PMR IS OVER! I know it's a tad bit late to write about that. Hehe. I thought I wrote a post before this but.. byebye
Me blogged @ | 10:40 pm
I should be studying.. sigh... I don't have anything to say really. I just hope I do well in my exams and that I can make my mamma and dadda proud. My seat in the hall is really horrible. It's right at the corner and it's dusty and it's hot... sigh... But it's not as if I have a choice. So anyway, I just want to wish a Good Luck and God Bless to all those taking their exams. With love,
Me blogged @ | 5:40 pm
