I'm looking for someone who will care,
With whom my problems I can share,
I'm looking for someone who understands,
with whom we can be true friends,
I complain that I'm not loved enough,
I complain that life is too tough,
I wish all day for someone special,
I wish I was another girl,
I'm stuck in my own fantasy world,
my problems are too many to handle,
I feel that nobody unerstands me,
but I yearn not to be lonely
You think you know me so darn well,
but the most important thing you forgot to tell,
as I human being I want to be respected,
and wanting acknowledgement can be expected
I want you to respect me privacy,
for reasons you can't seem to see,
you're childish, immature and self centered,
to you your ego is all that mattered
You poke your nose where it isn't wanted,
to get your way, me you manipulated,
I was weak, stupid and naive,
desperately hoping you oculd take away my grief.
Only yesterday, I was more than ready to slap you if you brought up that topic but today, I went to church and came back and realised that I'm not perfect either. SO I'm ready to forgive you, you don't even have to say sorry because frankly, I don't care. I just hope you know that you have hurt me by intruding my privacy so and never again will I ever tell you anything that truly matters. I'm sorry for you and I certainly hope you will never ever hurt anyone the way you have to me. You know who you are.
Me blogged @ | 3:57 pm
Hello... Yunyun complain that it has been a long time since I blogged so I decided to ignore all my accounts homework and come online. It has been a long time since I blogged actually. Nothing much has happened. My results have been ok although some have been quite depressing like Bio and English for example. Others have been very surprising like Physics. Expected to fail it to be honest. But who cares about exams? It's over and that's all that matters. My brain isn't working right so I'm sorry if what I type doesn't make sense. I'm really sleepy and I haven't slept before one for a week. I slept at three since last Thursday until Saturday and two on Sat and Monday nights. Tuesday about one thirty I think and yesterday night, I slept at one. Why? Because W called me last night. I was quite angry at him when I saw him on Saturday. I refused to talk to him. The only thing I said to him was "you first day know me ar?" when he said I looked mad. And throughout the meeting I was really quiet because his presence annoyed me. I think I only said "Do you really need to be told that W is stupid?" to SY. Then that evening he called me and asked me if I was mad at him and I said no and then Yun scolded me for saying no when I was actually mad at him. The next day I Smsed him asking him is he wanted his present which I had gotten for him. The Sms was quite an angry one. He then called ma at 2 and wel, we talked. He asked me to understand that he really was busy and raelly wanted to take the present but couldn't and blah blah. Then I said ok. Then MOnday night he called again. Then Tuesday night he called again. Then yesterday night he called again. =) I'm feeling much better now that I've talked to him. But right now he's merajuking becaue I don't want to tell him who I like. Like little girl only.
Me blogged @ | 3:16 pm
Just back from training again. This time thankfully, we didn't march. We did home nursing instead. If I'm ever a nurse, which I will never be because i find it boring, I will never work in Gleneagles either because their uniform is also pink. We did dressing today and the dressing kit was so nice and clean until mdm touched it. I just love clean things. Haha. She's quite nice I guess. Nicer than I had expected. Anyway, last Sunday,a lot of things happened. Happy things thankfully. I went to a dinner with my mum at her friend's house. I gained a 58 year old admirer there. Haha. Jk. I heard a lot of stories about weird doctors which is giving seocnd thought about ever becoming one. I heard about a doctor who thinks he's better than everybody else and scolds the med reps until they cry. And if stocks come later than the time he asked it to come, the rep will end up crying again. And even when he goes to the store (of the company) the people there are scared of him The version I heard goes like this.
"He park his big BMW in front of you and then all the store people call me. 'oi, cepat datang dia sudah datang'"
Haha, it's as if he's the end of the world. I heard this version from one of the managers. But this dr is a good dr. I've been to hima bout twice before and he's nott hat scary. I guess one can't be scary to ones patients right?
And then there was this 'sochai' (stupid boy) doctor as well. Who also happens to be a paediatrician and also a very good doctor. He basically lets his patients and nurses climb all over his head. What is with paediatricians anyway? But what I heard about this dr is that is his patients are quite poor then he won't charge them. That's so sweet. Wonder is he has a son...? Hehe...
Anyway, exams are this Monday so I don't know why I'm on the internet. I'm going to die so remember Yun, I want you to take care of my grand collection of bfs ok? Hehe. Don't worry, no more gay guy inside. I kicked Jason out remember? Haha.
I've finished doing notes for Bio, I'm going to fail Chem because it is BORING! I prefer to study History than Chem... can you believe it? I prefer History to science! But that doesn't mean I like history. I'm going to fail history too because we're practically expected to memorise the whole book and I can't even memorise one page. History is stupid. Who cares about the past anyway? Shouldn't we be thinking forward and not backward. Shouldn't we plan where to go from the present and not wonder where we were in the past? Unfortunately, we are forced to care about the past because I need to get straight A1s in SPM and get a scholarship because my parents can't afford my studies. Life sucks.
Me blogged @ | 12:27 pm
